Dari Suga BTS Sampai IU, Para Idol ini Pernah Curhat Tentang Tekanan Hidup yang Dirasakan Lewat Lagu

2. IU

IU – Glasses (2015)

"Beyond the smiling expression
I cannot see through the truth
I'm fine just along with you
Even if someone wrote me a hint
I cannot read it because it's written too small
I can only start digging little by little

Still, I do not want to wear glasses
Even if I open my eyes the entire day
I'm busy looking at all the things
That is so clear to see

I'm already tired from everything
I do not need to see every small, black thought
I'm already tired from everything
I do not need to read all the fine print

I do not want to wield a sword to find
The things you worked so hard to hide
I'm fine just getting fooled by you

Is there something behind the rainbow
It's too far, I cannot see it
I can only imagine marvelous things

Still, I do not want to wear glasses
Get tricked and deceived, but I still trust
I'm busy imagining and being disappointed

I'm already tired from everything
I do not care to see your flaws
I'm already tired from everything
I'm not going to wear heavy glasses

I'm already tired from everything
I do not want to see too far
I'm already tired from everything
I'm not going to wear square glasses"

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3. Zico Block B

Zico – Battle Royal (2012)

"My eyes open before the day breaks
Stuff in chicken breasts, lettuce into my mouth
Dash out to Han River, run a marathon
Anemia value rises, feeling sharp pains

Can’t finish, time to be exempt, pushup several times
I can just eat at an unwelcomed place then throw up
I tighten my belt, Fuck I gained a bit
Mr. Representative wants it,a body like a cola bottle

There are no allies, they say colleagues will soon be enemies
Blood-like sweat became horrific traces
When I can’t bear the practice room, I go to the bathroom
I secretly sob, taking care of it as quickly as possible

First priority is appearance
Eventually a wholesome face goes under the knife
A systematic production of human weapons
music bull shit? they wanna be a Famous. aight?

Because I said let’s become a star, I’m on the verge of insanity
I become a prey on my own, stirring my spoon
Battle royal, a profession where I must survive
If you waver you’re disqualified, move it just begun

Murderous looks keeping each other in check
When I turned around after running for a long time
I had lost my innocence and became a villain
No one will forgive me

I will survive as I live
I must survive until the end

The sound of shouting fills the hall
The hand gesture that forces more stimulation
A layer is taken off, fully gesturing erotically
Even though it looks beautiful, the inside is mangled from rotting

I successfully endured with a sober mind
One person pours tears, saying it’s now too much
This reality tangled with lies and impossible insistence
I’m scared to face it

Brightly colored balloons, plank card slogans
Take those out then everything else is criticism or resentment
No one knows, the saint becomes the right path
A chance to talk without being cursed at is given

Parents who boast about their precious daughter
The dust that enters their mind, their eyes
Engulfed in the feeling of betrayal, they shake their heads
Did they achieve their dream or lose their dream

Murderous looks keeping each other in check
When I turned around after running for a long time
I had lost my innocence and became a villain
No one will forgive me

I will survive as I live
I must survive until the end"

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4. Suga BTS

Suga – The Last (2016)

"On the other side of the famous idol rapper
Stands my weak self, it’s quite dangerous
Depression, OCD, they keep coming back again from time to time
Hell no perhaps that might be my true self

damn huh feeling estranged in reality
The conflict with ideal, my head hurts
Around the age of 18, socio-phobia developed in me
Right, that was when my mind was gradually polluted

At times I’m scared of myself too,
Self hated and thanks to the depression that takes over me
Min Yoongi is dead already (I’m dead)
Comparing my dead passion with others, it’s now a part of my daily life

On the first visit to psychiatric ward, my parents came up with me
We listened to the consultation together, my parents said they don’t truly understand me
I don’t understand myself well either, then who would understand?
Friend? Or you? Nobody knows me well

The doctor asks me
I answered without any hesitation that I have done

Habitual saying uh I don’t give a shit I don’t give a fuck
All those words uh those words are said to hide my weak self
Those days I wish I could erase
Right, that performance day which I don’t remember very well
The day I confronted myself when I hid inside the toilet because I was scared of people

That time I, that time I
I thought success will make everything fine
But you see, but you see
As time goes by, I feel like I’m turning into a monster

I’ve exchanged my youth for success, and that monster demands for more wealth
At times it puts a collar on my neck to ruin and swallow me with greed
Some try to shut my mouth and say I should swallow both good and evil
I don’t want it they want me to leave this hill

shit shit I got it so stop it
I’m the root of all this so I’ll stop myself
If my misfortune is your happiness, I’ll happily stay unfortunate
If I’m the figure of hate, I’ll get on the guillotine

The things I’ve imaged about turns into reality
My childhood dreams are in front of my eyes
The night when I performed in front of 2 audience
Now Tokyo Dome is right in front my nose
My one and only life, I can easily live it passionately than any other
my fan my hommie my fam I hope you don’t worry because I’m really okay now damn

I’ve denied my nature many times
My address is idol and I won’t deny
The anguish that dug into my mind countless times
There’s no answer at the end of wandering

My pride which I thought I had given away has turned into self-respect
My fans, keep your head high with pride because who can do it like me uh

Seiko, Rolex, AX (hall) and Gymnastic (stadium)
The heads of thousands nodding to my hand gesture
Show me the money, it’s not that I couldn’t but I didn’t shit
Selling ourselves or not, you all say we couldn’t do it but we didn’t shit
The root of my creativity has tasted the sweet, bitter and shit of this world
Those days when I laid down to sleep on the toilet floor, it’s all memories now uh they’re now memories
My shoulder which shattered thanks to the accident I met during my part time job
The debut which I clung as if it was my life
Who do you think your fool by pretending you’ve gone through all the miseries

Seiko, Rolex, AX (hall) and Gymnastic (stadium)
The heads of thousands nodding to my hand gesture
Sorrow created me uh look at me closely uh
Selling ourselves or not you all say we couldn’t do it but we didn’t shit"

5. Dongwoo INFINITE

Dongwoo’s rap yang ia tulis sendiri di konser INFINITE (2016/2/20~21)

“A job with many words (T/N: where a lot of words are used)
Grabbing the mic, I’m a singer
Each person has different standards
I thought that people would look at me and say
‘he’s kind’, ‘he’s strong’.
But it’s over, I failed.
Wounds from the words thrown at me without thought,
I only laughed it off and swallowed them”

6. Ilhoon BToB